It was one of those weeks, you know when Grumpy sneaks up behind you and slaps you over the head. From feeling down last week, I slipped into darkness this week. I can always tell when this happens as I did no sewing or baking all week. I am never sure what happens first and what triggers the other but grumpiness and depression go hand in hand with me not creating. When I am not creative I am a grump.
To make matters worse Justin was having his own personal down, which is not mine to talk about. Plus, Tamika was/is over-tired and barely home. She has started a new full-time job (YAY!), but the adjustment to working full-time and information overload has exhausted her. Ever since she got Guillian Barrie she tires easier than others.
To try to expel the dark mood, I spent the week attacking the garden, mowing, wiper sniping, hedge trimming, and digging, basically getting it ready for the hibernation of winter. As much as Jarvis adores being in the garden, I was feeling guilty as I had not given Jarvis 'his day'. A day when we spend the day doing an activity that is all about his fun.
My gardening assistant.
But then, we were at a Hardware store getting supplies, and it hit me how thrilled Jarvis was to be there. He got to push his own trolley and run amok in the plant section, he even got to sit in front of rows of garden gnomes and sing to them. Garden gnomes seem to be his audience of choice. He adores them.
Off in search of the gnomes
I sat down beside him in the plant section and realized, it is me that is the problem. I can stress all I want about lack of money and that is not going to change a thing. I have to take my example from Jarvis and find the happiness in the simple things and stop and sing to the gnomes. After all, my gnomes are happy.